Y U M E .

I don’t know why that came across to mind last night.

I’m sorry, I kept asking myself, why do I doubt it? Why do I question your motives or you, in general. I feel fucked up for thinking bad thoughts or even thinking negatively. I already know that you won’t hurt me, but in the back of my mind, I ponder.

With all honesty, I guess I’m afraid. I’ve never been so sure but so afraid at the same time. I’ve been hurt over and over again. And each and every time I give my heart away, it becomes so vulnerable. It ends up hurt. I highly doubt I can stand another. Especially with you.. I don’t know why, but you make me feel so happy, and it’s scary. That maybe just for now, it’ll be all smiles and laughter. But later, it might not be like that.. Sigh. I don’t even wanna think it. Cause negativity is not an option. It just isn’t.

But you reassured me last night, with all the words you could possibly say to me. You gave me more than what I needed. Faith. & to just believe. And I do, I believe in you.

:) No more bad feelings. Just please, be gentle. But if you ever feel that you’re not in this anymore, please let me know. Don’t hide it, be blunt with me. Just so you know.. I am happy. Extremely. <3